The random thoughts of life death and everything in between

5:06pm: life update
Hey there I thought I would just update everyone on my life and how it is going. I can even put it in to one word, BUSY. I don’t really seem to have any down time but to tell you truthfully I would have it no other way. So here is my update.
Relationship. Going great, Derek and I are still together and going strong. We are both trying to take things slow so that we don’t screw things up. He makes me feel good about life and every thing that is going on. We have hit some hard times but we talk things out and it just makes me love him even more. We are getting closer to our one year and I could not be happier. We are getting along better than I ever thought possible. One thing that I think is better than anything else is we never fight. Not once in the entire time that we have been together have we ever fought. That to me is just amazing. So on this front things are great and I am happier then I ever have been.
Work. I am working with Flood insurance and I am loving it. I work for Travelers Flood and at a company called Covansys. It is very fast paced and I love the people that I work with and for. We all have a lot of fun while we are at work and in the end that is all that matters if you really think about it. I make excellent money and my hours aren’t bad by any means. Monday thru Friday 7am to 4pm and all the overtime that I could ever want. So the job is great and so are the people.
Home. I am living in Lenexa KS with some friends in a huge house. The house is a 4 bed 3 bath 2 floors home. And it is just wonderful and so are the people that I live with. Julia and Tarah are so cool, they are almost like sisters to me. Tarah is going to move out soon since her and her boy got engaged and they are going to move in together. I am really going to miss having her there but I know that I can call her when I need to. Jules has a man and his name is Spencer. I am glad that she is leaving me too. I am really happy that I decided to move in to this house. My room is pretty cool I have the whole downstairs to my self. There is a living room and a half bath and then my room so it is nice. Right now we are looking for a new roommate since Tarah is leaving. I am hopping that we find someone soon.
Faire. Yes it is that season for the Renaissance Festival. I have been rehearsing for the Faire since about May so I have been really really busy but that is okay. This year I decided I was going to break free of Mother Pockets and the Soup Kitchen, (though I do miss them all very much,) and try something new. This year I am a Gypsy. I am in a stage show called Forbidden Gypsy and I perform with the group Troupe Festival. There have been times I want to pull my hair out but I am loving every min of it. We just got back from the Minnesota Faire and though it rained the whole time I did have fun and was kinda sad that we had to leave. I am so happy that we only have 2 weeks till our faire. I wish that it would start sooner and last longer but I will have to live with what I have. The sage show has 6 people and they are Nadia, Cosmina, Illiana, Ivan, Ceazar, and me Lyanka. We all have a lot of fun. I hope that you all get to come out and see the faire.
As you can see I have been busy but I thought I would stop and take the time to let you all know how I was doing I know that there is more that I have forgotten but I think this is good for now. I do miss a lot of you and I hope that I see you all soon. Love you much and hopefully often, hehehehe.
Blessed Be
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11:34pm: Sorry it has been so long
Well here is a little up date on my life. I have moved in to my new house and I love it! I miss living with Derek but I think that this is better for the both of us. I don't want to move things along too fast if you know what I mean. My parents house is finally gutted and they think that they are going to start rebuilding some time soon. That makes me really really happy. My Father is still looking for a job after losing his, due to the point that he was "Distracted." Well duh your house burns down and your mother dies all in the same week...YEA I think that just gives you the right to be distracted. But the cool thing about that is I am trying to get him a job were I work! Now that I have a real job that I can actually get my father a job. Derek and I couldn't be better! We are both learning new things about each other all of the time and out communication hasn't closed down. I love the fact that I can talk to him about anything and even though he may not understand everything he is willing to listen to me and try to help if that is what I need at the time. I have even been able to tell him a little about my past that till now I have been afraid to tell anyone. I am just happy that things are going well. We got back from Heartland not to long ago and we both had a great time with that and are already sighed up to work it next year. Boy do I have stories to tell about some of the things that happened out there but that will come later. I start my rehersals this week for KCRF and I am excited about that and then I have a wedding this weekend. As you can tell so far I have been busy. Well I am going to take off it is late and I have to get up early to go to work.

Well love you all
Blessed Be
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10:20pm: I'm Back
Well I know that it has been a while since I have been on here. I have been really busy. On my agenda for the past...forever has been the play that I am in. I am having a lot of fun so I cant really complain. But I have been really really busy for the longest time and I am really looking forward to the play being over and then again I am not. I have met some really cool people, and I am going to miss them really bad. But then again I might be able to actually have a life now.

On another note I got a new job and started on Monday the 19th and I love it. I work at Covansys for Travelers Flood Insurance. My tittle is CSR Customer Service Rep. Mainly I help agents take care of their customers flood insurance. I will tell you what I am learning more about Flood insurance then I ever wanted to know. But I like the people that I work with and I like my job. Plus the benefits are REALLY REALLY good I love my benefits and the pay is not too bad either. So pretty much I am happy

There is some other really really good news but for now I can't say what it is because it is not final yet.

Love you all and Miss you terribly
Blessed Be
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4:43pm: HAPPY VALENTINES DAY

I love you all thank you for being a part of my life.

Blessed Be
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10:47pm: BUSY!!!!!!
So I will not be going to Monday night cooking for some time now and will be falling off the side of the planet. I am in a play at the OOCTA called Inherit the Wind. Not any big roll just a filler but I needed to get back into acting of some kind. I might even start trying out for some plays here soon but that is not quite decided yet. Well love you all and I hope to see you all soon March 24 is the last performance and the strike so till then I bid you all adue.

Love you all
Blessed Be
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5:00pm: And if everyone jumps then I guess I would too.
Reply to this post, and I will tell you my favorite icon of yours.

Then post this to your own journal using your own favorite icon.

2:34pm: HAPPY HOLIDAYS
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ONE AND ALL.

6:16am: So I wasn't gone as long as I thought but still have nothing I can say.

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2:19am: Disappearing act take two
I know that is has been a couple of days since my last post but I have been at a loss for words. I have thought of keeping up on my count down to Christmas, but there hasn't been a point. Some of you know what is going on in my life at present time and we have chatted. Thank you for all of your help and support that you have shown me. It means more to me than you will ever know. As for the rest of you I look forward to chatting with you and hearing your thoughts. You all know how to reach me if you want or need to. I apologize for the dark cloud of thought and uncertainty that I have been carrying around with me for the last week or so, and I hope that soon I will find it's silver lining and let it go. Until then I bid you all adieu. I need some time to think and to clear my head. This means little to no posting from me. I know that the last time I stopped posting I worried a few people and I want you all to know that I am not dropping off the face of the planet. I will check LJ from time to time until I feel that I have something that I can write. I love you all and you all mean the world to me. I thank you all for your compassion and love and I promise that I will post again...LOL...though I am not sure when that will be.

Blessed Be
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Dawn is hiding

10:40am: 12 days meme

6:19am: Findings
To all of you thank you for your friendship and love I dearly appreciate everything that you all mean to me. Some of you may know but others may not. One again thank you for everything.

Here's to weights being lifted and to the future for what ever it may hold for any of us, to great friends and wonderful lovers, for the past so that we may learn and today for the breath I take and the beats of my heart. For all of this I am thankful to be alive and well. For the sun and the moon, day and night, for the beauty of a strangers smile, and the glory of a child's eyes. Today I am well, today I am free, today I plan to learn about who I am. Finally it is time for me.

Much love to one and all this holiday season. You all know who you are and you all know how you have helped. THANK YOU. May you always feel my love and gratitude

Blessed Be
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8:17pm: My Xmas Stocking
( my xmas stocking )

Love one love all
Blessed Be
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7:35pm: 18 DAYS TILL X-MAS
I think that this will be my last enstallmetn of trivia so here you go.

( Trivia )

And I really need a good laugh today. I have found that I am really depresed as of late and I am really sick and fucking tired of it but hey that is my life right. So here is a cartoon that might put a smile on all of your faces.

( cartoon )

1:05pm: 19 DAYS TILL X-MAS
So ofcourse I have to do trivia. Only because I really didn't know most of these questions.

( trivia )

So this just sounded weird and we all need recepies.

( Ricotta Cheese Cookies )

Well once again that is all for little ol me. Much love

Blessed Be
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11:35pm: 20 TILL CHRISTMAS
So here it is more triva for your holiday pleasure.

( trivia )

And what Christmas isn't complet without some laughs

( Cartoon )

Well that is all I have for you today hope your holidays thus far are blessed

Blessed Be
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11:41am: 21 DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS
So my Grandfather always sends me very strange E-mails and I thought that this one was cute.

( How we got our angels )

And to keep with tradition here is some fun x-mas info

( X-mas trivia )

Well I got to run and I hope all of you are having a good holiday so far.
Blessed Be
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12:08pm: 22 DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS
THE ASCAP (American Society of Composers, Authors and Publishers)

Top 25 Most Performed Holiday Songs for the first 5 years of the 21st century.

( christmas songs )



Christmas Tree Arrives At Rockefeller Center
POSTED: 9:41 am EST November 9, 2006

http://www.wnbc.com/news/10280806/detail.html

HARTFORD, Conn. -- An 88-foot Norway spruce from a western Connecticut home arrived in Manhattan Friday to become this year's Rockefeller Center Christmas tree.

I hope that everyone is doing well. Love to all
Blessed Be
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10:29am: Christmas Countdown
I know that it is a little sappy but I do it every year and that is a countdown to christmas day. I love counting down me and my family would always buy one of those chocolate filled 25 days to christmas and we would open one up everynight before bed. You might say that it is ingraned in me at this point. So here you are, and to help you out http://eclecticesoterica.com/xmas_cnt.html this website has the countdown down to the minute. I will also daily go look something up that has to do with the season and post it on here. Yes I know that I am stange but we all know that.

23 DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS

Yule Log - Make a Wish!

From= http://holidaypages4u.tripod.com/yule_log.htm
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Winter Solstice marks the time of the year when the light returns as the sun shifts and starts to move northward again. In Europe, the tradition of the Yule log is celebrated on Winter Solstice. A special log is brought in and placed on the hearth where it glows for the twelve nights of the holiday season. After that, it is kept in the house all year to protect the home and its inhabitants from illness and any adverse condition. This is just one of many different annual customs of the Yule Log.

In America, some annual customs of the Yule Log mirror those from Europe. These customs are still practiced today. One in particular uses regular firewood. Of all the firewood set aside for use that winter one perfect log is picked and used. It is brought inside the house and put in an area where guests and friends can easily see the log. A wish is made by whoever puts their hand on the log. When the log is burned on Christmas Day all the wishes will come true in the upcoming year.

Well I have to get running hope every one has a good day. love you all very much and I am blessed to have you all in my life.

Blessed Be
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9:19am: BIRTHDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY senset



I hope your birthday is filled with love and compassion but most of all warmth.

Blessed Be
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7:39pm: Let it Snow, Let it Snow....

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I love this weather,(yes I know that I am strange) but it is making it all nice and white and stuff.

Well got to run love ya all
Blessed Be
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11:48am: "is anyone home?"
There are times that I really don't feel like writing anything on here because no one ever stops in and says HI. Or at least that is how it has been lately. *knocks on monitor and asks "is anyone home?"*

I thought that this was funny it is a pic of me in high school. My have the times changed.

( memories )

My baby is already a year old. Bear dog happy birthday

( my baby boy )

Your Elf Name Is...

Booty Sweet Cheeks

Well that is all I got for now.
Blessed Be
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11:43pm: HAPPY HOLIDAYS
Just wanted to say Happy Thanksgiving!!! Hope everyone felt blessed today. You are all gifts in my world and I am thankfull to know all of you and have all of you grace me with your gift of love and friendship. Thanks again much love to all.

Blessed Be

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4:14pm: family pics and vids
So the kids were out playing in the leaves today and I got some good pictures from it they are below.
( family pics )
And for some of you that want to see here is a pic of primalsilicon's back after surgury. Not for the week of stomacks but cool all in all. I had to ask permission due to the slight butt shot but so you all know there is some plumming involved.

( Bri's Back )
Hope everyone is ready for the holidays for they are upon us. Love you all and hope you all have a good day.

Blessed Be
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11:57pm: Home yeah
So I am home from the hospital and am very tired. So if none of this makes since or is spelt really wrong ignore it and don’t tell me. Here is an update.......

primalsilicon is doing well and the pain meds are seaming to be working. His surgery was about 6 hours long. But everything went well and he is doing good. I will let you all know were he is as soon as I have permission and any notes left here for him I will be sure to pass on.

ryuladymithryl is staying with him at the hospital tonight and then I get to stay there Friday and Saturday night. She is also doing well we are all just tired.

I got the kiddos home and all in bed. Laundry is almost done then it is off to the shower for me and then time to get my little ass in to bed and try to survive another sleep deprived day. I am selling my old Honda tomm and I am so happy to finally get rid of that damn old thing.

A huge thanks to sherwood21 and bountifulpots for all of their help with the kids. I really am indebted to you.

Well I am falling over trying to type so I believe that it is time for that shower. Love you all.

Blessed Be

11:03pm: How to make things better.
If anyone can do this it would be great. I know things aren’t that bad and I have an issue of making things blow up and completely go way out of proportion. I try to make sure everything goes smoothly but all I seem to accomplish is stepping on everyone’s toes. I blew up at the wife today and I feel like shit for doing so. I really wasn't mad just stressed out and wanting a way to express it. But before I could calm down I just went off like a time bomb. I hate it when I do that. I try to just keep everything in and then all at once it just comes out in an insane ramble that sounds like I am pissed at the world and I'm not. But here I go again just starting to ramble. I use to have people that I could just say "ok nothing that I am about to say will make any sense just sit there and listen please." and they would and then tell me how truly crazy I am.

I really just need to go to sleep, beg forgiveness from the wife, try to find a better way to motivate her, and then just find a fun way to release all this built up frustrations.

Love you all thanks for letting me ramble...
Blessed Be